The insight to your question lies below. First, observe the symbols and images in your Lenormand cards, then slowly take in the wisdom in your reading.
A concrete new beginning, hope and healing with the passage of time. There may be a creative woman coming into your life, or a productive partnership. That person may bring an earthy practicality in a time of need.
You are stuggling with yourself over the guilt you feel when you feel you have fallen short of society's expectations.